Pale Skin, Green Veins

Pale skin. Green veins. Purple shadows. My face.

Stare at the mirror. Plead for change.

Feel the shame. No escape.

Pale skin. Green veins. Purple shadows. My face.

Feel depression’s cold embrace.

Trapped inside a self-built cage.

Pale skin. Green veins. Purple shadows. My face.

Stare at the mirror. Plead for change.

 

Scattered freckles. Brown eyes. Dark lashes. Red smile.

Stare at the mirror. We share a grin.

Take a deep breath. Feel worthwhile.

Scattered freckles. Brown eyes. Dark lashes. Red smile.

Myself and happiness reconcile.

Finally comfortable in my skin.

Scattered freckles. Brown eyes. Dark lashes. Red smile.

Stare at the mirror. We share a grin.

State of Mind

To struggle to catch a breath

to have a mind that never stops

to spend every night worrying about the next day

to spend every morning worrying about the day ahead

to be lost (inside your own head)

to struggle to get out of bed

to struggle to leave the house

to feel unsafe at your safest

to feel a weight pressing down on your chest (that weight is life)

to feel ashamed of your own mind

to be told to cheer up (depression isn’t real, you’re just upset)

to be told to pull yourself together (anxiety isn’t real, stop worrying)

to hide in a toilet for hours because no one will find you in there

to want help but the doctor makes you anxious

to want help but it’s all in your head

to want help but no one believes you

to feel lonely but want to be alone

to think too much

to think too little

to care too much

to care too little

to be scared.


Inspired by “Some People Know” by Rita Ann Higgins.

In The Words Of…

As an avid reader, aspiring writer and university student, it is no surprise to anyone that I have read my fair share of books. Usually with each book I read there is a chapter, a page, or just a few words that stick out to me in some way. Sometimes, unexpectedly, a line will give me chills, move me to tears, inspire me, or even give me hope. These quotes are the ones that stick with me. I’ve compiled a list of my favourite quotes – some are obvious, some maybe less so – to share with anyone who stumbles across my blog. Hopefully these quotes will inspire you in the same way they inspire me!

“You’re mad, bonkers, completely off your head. But I’ll tell you a secret. All the best people are.” – Lewis Carroll

I love this quote from Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland so much that I have it written on my bedroom wall! I think it has always inspired me so much because it promotes individuality and creativity. People often label me as “mad” or “weird”, and this quote speaks to me because Carroll is saying we should embrace our “madness”. The things that make us “bonkers” are the things that make us interesting.

“I am no bird; and no net ensnares me: I am a free human being with an independent will.” – Charlotte Bronte

I have studied Jane Eyre twice – at college and at university – so my first read of the novel was not by choice. However, I am so glad that I was forced to read this book for my studies because it is now one of my absolute favourites. This quote (which I also have framed in my bedroom) from Jane, a feminist character way ahead of her time, is so empowering for women and such an important quote in feminist literature.

“A person who has good thoughts cannot ever be ugly. You can have a wonky nose and a crooked mouth and a double chin and stick-out teeth, but if you have good thoughts they will shine out of your face like sunbeams and you will always look lovely.” – Roald Dahl

I love more or less everything written by Roald Dahl, but this quote in particular has always stood out to me. It’s such a lovely reminder that a person’s character is more important than their appearance. Kindness creates true beauty.

“Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on Earth should that mean that it is not real.” – J.K. Rowling

I can’t explain why I love this quote so much; quite simply because I don’t know. When I first read these words in Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows I got chills, and the quote wouldn’t leave my mind for days. Even now, years later, the quote makes its way into my head and stays there. I think the closest I can get to an explanation would be that this quote captures the importance of magic, dreams and imagination.

“So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I’m still trying to figure out how that could be.” – Stephen Chbosky

Anyone who hasn’t read The Perks of Being a Wallflower needs to read it immediately. The book explores growing up, adolescence, mental illness, sexuality, relationships and friendships in such a beautiful way. This quote is important to me because it manages to capture my struggle with depression. For years my depression has left me feeling sad, empty and hopeless, but this description is far too simplistic. Having depression doesn’t mean you can’t feel happiness. There have always been bright spots in my life – family, friends, my partner, animals, books, coffee – that have inspired a tiny spark of happiness even on my darkest days. I can identify with his feelings of confusion.

“I think that if I ever have kids, and they are upset, I won’t tell them that people are starving in China or anything like that because it wouldn’t change the fact that they were upset. And even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesn’t really change the fact that you have what you have.” – Stephen Chbosky

Another quote from The Perks of Being a Wallflower that proves how amazing Stephen Chbosky is. I’ve heard “you should think yourself lucky” and “there are people much worse off than you” all my life. I have encountered many people that say, “what have you got to be depressed about?”. It’s important to remember that regardless of how anyone else perceives your problems, it is still a problem to you. No one has a right to belittle your emotions.

“Comfort, the enemy of progress.” – P.T. Barnum

Of course I had to include this quote in my list! Although from a movie instead of a book, this quote is incredibly important to me. It inspired this blog! Check out my ‘Home’ page to read about why I love P.T. Barnum’s words so much.


Share your favourite quotes in the comments below!